So my short time with byetta has come to a halt within 3 days i had a hoarse voice and terrible scratching in my throat. I do have trouble woth chronic heartburn and take lansoprazole daily for this but didnt seem to work when taking byettea. Have stopped injections today and will go back on my forixiga. Sitaglipton and starlix tomorrow morning. Have gp appointment on 4th august so will doscuss it with her then . In the meantime i hope this settles quickly as it is waking me up at night with a scratchy throat.
Going to try low carb high fat diet in a weeks time. Need to seetle my stomach first
Felt so rough yesterday. My head was like cotton wool and i spent most of afternoon in bed.
Woke this morning to bad stomach and 3trips to loo before 7am. Its now just after 9 and feel swimmy head and bit of nausea hopefully today will be better than yesterday as functioning at work js goi g to be tricky if i feel like this
So the day has arrived and my new life begins. a life where i start to look after myself, take care of myself, try to love myself.
I wondered if i would hesitate with my first injection as it s been around 21 months since i last injected. but it was ok, i slightly hesitated for maybe 2 seconds. They have changed the needles now and I can honestly say i didnt feel a thing.
Its been about 30 mins since i injected and I had a small bowl of porridge for breakfast yet i feel like i have eaten a roast dinner! so full up….i dont remember this last time but hey ho maybe its different this time. I wasn’t on heart tablets last time so maybe that will make a difference?
I plan to document my journey over the next couple of weeks, in the hope that somebody else may read and identify with my journey. i have been in counseling for around 4 years now and its been a long hard journey but I think i am beginning to make big changes,and feel more compassion for myself, hence starting up again with the correct diabetes medication and trying to put a stop to the self harm. I don’t need to harm myself i have done nothing wrong Im just a product of losers, correction im now a product of my new creation…….I am who i want to be……………….almost!!!
So the eve before i start diabetic injections again . Its been a while since inhave injected so i hope i dont have too much issue starting again.had to come off my existing drugs today and my sugar at the moment is 23.6 bloody crazy huh😲i am hoping this drug will give me better control with not only my glucose but also my appetite. As this seems to have increased with my glucose levels . Need to kick start some more weight loss also as since the propanolol i have gained about 5kg no extra weight gain is good for diabetes . Nervous but also ready for the challenge .
Prince died. A part of my life spent listening to what I thought were poignant lyrics also died. Lyrics I spent hours listening to reminding me of secret rendezvouz secret meetings of a secret love affair
A love affair nobody knew about. A love affair so strong and only Prince could write the lyrics to support that time in my life . I would die 4 u ! I truly believed I would die for you . I don’t expect you even remember that I very nearly died for you . I bet I lie buried deep within your mind hidden and buried! Or in your mind you have justified how you had a relationship with me , how I pursued you , how I oozed sexuality blah blah.
We spent hours listening to Purple Rain , in the back of your rover . You even started to like the album and loved nicki and grinding! But now that i am 46 it is bittersweet memories I am left with. I hear the songs being played on Mtv As the tributes are played and my mind is taken back to that time but now I can’t see the past in the same rose tinted glow.
This wasn’t love , this was abuse! I was 14 you were 44 I truly believed it was my perfect love affair. But you knew the vulnerability in me, you helped me with my home life and I trusted you.
I’m still not ready to deal with this but I’m getting stronger.every conselling session brings me closer to being happier and realising that your behaviour was NOT my fault .
So for me , thank you Prince for the beautiful music , and I will continue on my journey to turn my purple pain back to purple rain . See you in the new world x
Goodbye and good riddance